To Whom Shall I Go?

How has life been going for you lately? I hope it’s been happy and productive and filled with God-moments. If you’ve never had a God-moment, you’ve got to try. A lot of mine happen in the car, because while I’m driving, I sometimes get to thinking about what’s going on in my life while I’m listening to praise music on the radio. As I hear the lyrics to one song or another, I reflect on my life and realize that God has been doing something, somewhere in it. And I get those Holy Spirit goosebumps, followed by a rush of joy that comes from recognizing God has been present with me once again, has once again been the One who has made all the difference between ho-hum life and really good life. It’s a great feeling.

But more often than not, I’m having a Murphy’s Law kind of day, where it seems like everything that can go wrong, does. Before long, I’m in a lousy mood. My kids know about this right away as I start to overreact to their little accidents and mistakes. I can really get myself into a good grump over not much of anything sometimes.

Or maybe a serious concern does come up in my day. Or several. Before long I’m trying to think it through, come up with a solution. I’m going into survival mode, cutting things out of my life until I can feel like it’s all under control again. That’s what I do. Sometimes.

But it’s not what I should do, necessarily.

Where is God in all of this? All too often, He’s one of the things I’ve pushed off to the side as I try to regain my equilibrium and deal with life. But He doesn’t belong on the sidelines. I need to bring Him into the middle of it all. That’s where He does His best work. When I let Him come in and take over, suddenly life seems good again. Those little bumps in the road don’t seem so damaging, so insurmountable. I can hold my temper. Sometimes problems find solutions. But even if they don’t, I’m not in panic mode. I have a peace about my life.

I used to think God only wanted to be bothered with the big stuff of our lives. Serious illness or injury, major life upheavals like unemployment, or a family member in crisis. Why would God want to be bothered with trivial things? But I have come to think that because God cares so much about us, He cares about all the things we care about, big and small. Not only that, but the more we bring Him into every aspect of our lives, the more we get to know Him. He communicates to us through all the big and small things of life, sometimes through the small even more than through the big.

And isn’t that the point of life, really? Getting to know God better? Following Him in everything?

Whether we want to admit it or not, we are utterly dependent on God for absolutely everything. Some times we know it more than other times. In those times when I’ve leaned on him most, He has let me know that it’s okay. Those have been some of the closest times I’ve had with Him. Why would I want to shut that out? Why wouldn’t I want to repeat that experience over and over again?

“Lord, to whom shall we go? You have the words of eternal life.” –John 6:68

Jen Krausz

About Jen Krausz

Child of God, wife, mother, teacher, writer. So many roles, so little time! Due to God's insistent nudging, writing has become more than just the last role on the list, but something to which time and energy are intentionally committed. Jen writes about life experiences and how they continually point her back to her loving God.
This entry was posted in Faith, General, Growth and tagged , , , , , , , . Bookmark the permalink.