When Procrastination Isn’t

The theme of my week has been procrastination. It’s a problem I’ve had ever since I can remember. Usually, I procrastinate to avoid doing things I find unpleasant (like paying bills), boring (like cleaning) or overwhelming (like learning WordPress so I can build my own web site). No matter the reason, I find that procrastination always ends the same way: with me stressed and overloaded, kicking myself for wasting so much time on Facebook, eBay, or just plain zoned out. TV used to play a factor there too, but that has recently changed.

So I found myself wondering by midweek, why am I procrastinating again? For weeks I have been so motivated, keeping up with various tasks and moving forward on some others. I didn’t expect procrastination to rear its ugly head right now. It was kind of discouraging, to tell you the truth.

As I thought about it more, I realized that I was feeling very tired. In fact, I hadn’t had much energy for days now. What on earth was going on? It was not normal for me to feel this tired. I couldn’t figure out where the fatigue was coming from. Sure, I had been waking up earlier than my alarm clock (which is already very early), but the early waking had been going on for weeks now and I hadn’t felt tired before this week.

This particular bout of procrastination, I reasoned, seemed to be connected to my tiredness. I really wanted to do some of the things I was putting off, but when I thought about the energy I knew it would take, I just couldn’t muster it up. So I crocheted, and I read, and I napped. I surfed Facebook, I looked at things on eBay, but I didn’t do the things that I had planned to do, that I wanted to do and that I knew God wanted me to do. And I got further and further behind. The effectiveness I had found for the past month began to decline rapidly.

As I thought about the possible reasons for my unusual tiredness, my mind kept going back to a book I had recently read. 24/6 by Matthew Sleeth deals with the 4th commandment, to keep the Sabbath holy. Before reading this book, I had always reasoned that keeping the Sabbath was simply impossible in today’s world. How on earth would I get everything done if had to take one day and not do anything? I remember reading another book about Sabbath, Rest by Kerri Wyatt Kent, some years ago. At the time, I had asked my husband if we could try maybe taking turns having a Sabbath, a day with no chores or work, once a month. He had flatly rejected my idea. He was willing to give me a day off, he said, but wasn’t interested in having one off himself. I didn’t see that as fair, so I dropped the idea.

Now, however, the idea of keeping Sabbath has taken hold in my mind. Being who I am, I’m not really interested in getting legalistic about the Sabbath. If it becomes a list of do’s and don’t’s, to me that will turn even the Sabbath into just plain more work. In 24/6, though, Sleeth writes about Sabbath as rest, as stopping all the striving and labors and just being able to focus on God, on rest, for a day. He says that stopping is actually a holy act. That really resonates with me. After all, just a month ago, when I was able to let go of some bad habits by relying more on God (see my post The Breakthrough), I actually did have somewhat of a Sabbath. In many ways I did just stop. I changed my routine in significant ways. I didn’t do any paid work. I didn’t watch TV or go on the computer except for helping Kathryn with a school project. I fasted.

In the intervening month, I haven’t taken a day to stop the way I did that day. I’m not sure I want or need to do all the same things I did that day, but I have become more and more convicted that I need to find a way to stop periodically. Probably once a week. Pardon me for being sarcastic with myself, but gee, maybe that’s why God created the Sabbath! I wonder why it’s taken me almost 40 years to take it seriously.

If you are interested in the idea of Sabbath and want to check out the books I mentioned in this post, see my links page.

Jen Krausz

About Jen Krausz

Child of God, wife, mother, teacher, writer. So many roles, so little time! Due to God's insistent nudging, writing has become more than just the last role on the list, but something to which time and energy are intentionally committed. Jen writes about life experiences and how they continually point her back to her loving God.
This entry was posted in Books, Faith, General and tagged , , , , , , , , . Bookmark the permalink.

2 Responses to When Procrastination Isn’t

  1. Dan Ledwith says:

    Great post. I know many of us, myself included, need reminded about the necessity of Sabbath in our weekly rhythm. Thanks!

  2. Jen Krausz Jen Krausz says:

    I’m so clueless on how this web site works that I just realized I don’t have a links page, I added the links for the books but they don’t show, and I don’t know how to make them show. Sorry about that, both books are on Amazon.com if you want to look them up.

Comments are closed.