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I have had a vicious case of “blogger’s block” for over a week now. I fully intended to post a new musing last week, but no topics presented themselves. Instead, I did a few small sewing projects and kept thinking about what to post.
Finally, I decided to just be honest and admit that I’m struggling for new ideas at the moment. It’s not that I don’t have thoughts about God or faith issues I’m dealing with. I have a constant internal dialogue about God and my faith. It’s just that everything seems so tired, so cliche, or so personal that a topic for the blog was not forthcoming.
Maybe I am getting too used to being assigned topics to write about. Or maybe I’m being mentally lazy, succumbing to the January blahs that are so common this time of year. See, my internal dialogue isn’t really that interesting a lot of the time. Lots of maybes and speculating about my psychological makeup and motivations.
Anyway, my lack of post ideas for this blog led me in the direction of writing about those times we have nothing to say to God. Why might someone feel that they have nothing to say to God? What does that say about their faith? And how can they overcome this feeling?
Having nothing to say to God usually comes from one of two things: something traumatic that happened in your life that you just can’t understand, or being in a state of spiritual apathy.
People who have experienced trauma in their lives often feel anger toward God. They question why God allowed the traumatic event to happen and why God didn’t rescue them from their suffering. I’m not going to get into the answers to those questions. That would be a lot longer than a blog post!
However, I believe strongly that God wants us to be honest with Him no matter what. If we are angry with Him, we need to express that to Him rather than give Him the silent treatment. Keeping the lines of communication open even when we are angry may help us to process and deal with the trauma we have experienced. God comes to us in our suffering and helps us, even if He doesn’t prevent every bad thing from happening to us. We can experience God’s love and peace if we keep talking to Him even when we are angry and sad.
Spiritual apathy is something I believe we all deal with at different times. At least, I know that I have slipped into this state unawares more than once before. Although my heart’s desire is to be aware and growing spiritually every day of my life, the reality is that other realities of life can take up my time, energy and attention some days (or weeks) and push my relationship with God to the back burner.
At these times of spiritual apathy, I sometimes feel like I have nothing to say to God. Maybe no new thoughts are coming to my mind, or I’m just too busy with deadlines and kids’ activities and keeping a household going to think about God much, let alone talk to Him.
I don’t like being in a state of spiritual apathy. It doesn’t take very long before life begins to feel meaningless and like a heavy burden to bear. When these feeling start to come, I know I need to find some time to get alone with God to talk to Him and read His word. Even listening to Christian music is a tremendous help in banishing spiritual apathy from my life, since much of the music I enjoy praises God and “talks” to Him through the song lyrics (yes, I sing along). More about that in this post.
I encourage you to keep on talking to God even when you think you have nothing to say. I would welcome your thoughts in the comments section about your experiences with having nothing to say to God.